Coins in the Crack
Author: Ada Merrin (author page)
Grief and Search for meaning.
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Blurb
Eight years ago, Claire Mercer's father died in a car accident. Since then she has done everything people expected — finished her degree, moved to Toronto, started teaching. One question still has no answer: if any part of a person survives death, is there an honest way to find out?
On the anniversary of his death, alone in her apartment, Claire starts a private experiment. She combines automatic writing with an AI chat program and a strict set of rules. The AI's job is to keep her from fooling herself.
It works better than she expected, and that is the problem. Her therapist calls it a warning sign. Her professor calls it weak method. Her friends barely see her. Claire has to decide what she has found — and whether it belongs to the world, or only to her.
Coins in the Crack is a quiet, grounded novel about grief and the search for proof.
Story
(Excerpt )
The clock on her wall ticked past an hour she had promised Hale she’d avoid for sessions. She noticed it and did not look away.
On the page, the bracket down the margin turned the twenty lines into a single tall shape, like a doorway cut out of language. Coins, corners, wrong centres. They stand in lit spaces / under signs / near maps / that is why they miss the corner with no plaque.
She added a second note under the bracket: sounds like the same mouth as Kingswood.
Tagging this as guide_cluster_3. Are you comfortable with me using that word?
ai: i use whatever labels you provide
ai: ‘guide’ is your choice
ai: i can also refer to it neutrally as ‘instructional sub-voice’ if you prefer
Guide is shorter.
ai: noted
She rubbed the heel of her palm over the edge of the notebook, feeling the slight ridge where the paper dipped around her handwriting.
Without intending to, she typed another line.
Do you ever get the sense that he’s irritated with me?
There was a pause long enough for her to hear three clear ticks from the wall clock.
ai: you are asking whether the guide voice has independent emotional states
ai: i have no basis for answering that
ai: i can say only that many of the lines you attribute to ‘amelu’ contain corrective language (‘not that turn’ / ‘you keep hunting the middle’)
ai: such language can feel like irritation when read as speech
I thought “he” before I typed “guide.” It’s like the pronoun is pushing its way in on its own.
ai: pronoun assignment is a common way humans stabilise ambiguous agents
ai: once you label a pattern as ‘he’ or ‘she’ it becomes easier to relate to and harder to treat as neutral structure
Format: eBook (Paperback soon)
Length: Full-length novel, approx. 153,000 words · 695 pages (print length kindle)
Genre: Metaphysical & AI, Life after Death, Grief
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This is Ada Merrin’s debut novel. Wait for more from her in the future, to be published here on UTP House